I am

  • I am

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    I am

    By Patricia Morris

    I am made of rich black soil that grows corn and soybeans and wheat and oats and vegetable gardens.

    I am made of love showered upon me by parents and grandparents and aunts and uncles.

    I am made of tallgrass prairies and mighty rivers.

    I am made of grief and loss.

    I am made of Midwestern college campuses, of thick gray and dark green law books.

    I am made of courtrooms and jails, prisons and government office buildings.

    I am made of curiosity and wanderlust, of courage and manners.

    I am made of blood and bone, atoms and molecules, hair and cartilage.

    I am made of brain synapses and aching joints, smiling eyes and laughing mouth.

    I am made of love.

    Who is this “I” I am describing? I learn in Zen that there is no “I.” “I” am a figment of “my” imagination. I am nothing without everything.

    I am nothing without everything

    I am nothing without

    I am nothing

    I am

    I

    Patricia Morris lives in Northern California and writes on Monday nights at Jumpstart Writing Workshops. She loves road trips, the Grateful Dead, and reading Dogen.

    Her writing has appeared in Rand McNally’s Vacation America, the Ultimate Road Atlas and The Write Spot anthologies:  “Possibilities” and “Musings and Ravings From a Pandemic Year,” edited by Marlene Cullen.

  • Mycorrhiza

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    Mycorrhiza*

    by Patricia Morris

    I live under the canopy of a grandmother valley oak. It grows in what is now called “my neighbor’s yard,” due to the way we white settlers swept through this what-is-now-called a nation over the past 300 years and took over everything. Massacred people who were living here, infected them with deadly diseases, tried to re-make them in our image. Declared that we “owned” the land, bought and sold it; built structures to live in, structures that got bigger and more permanent as time passed; built fences to delineate MINE.

    But before all this, there was the valley oak. Like all oaks, it began as an acorn, scrunched into the dirt next to a small seasonal creek. Its roots sank deeper each year, reaching for the water. Its mycorrhizal fungi spread wide, linking fingers with the grandfather sycamore nearby, and the great buckeye at the deeper part of the creek. They grew up together sharing food; sharing information; sharing tenants such as woodpeckers, scrub jays, red-shouldered hawks, squirrels, and woodrats.

    The grandmother oak watched placidly as the Coast Miwok women gathered its acorns, ground them into mush, and fed them to their families; as the Spanish and then the white folks pushed in and planted crops and orchards, grazed cattle and sheep; as roads were laid down and houses sprang up, displacing meadows and pastures.

    Fifty-one years ago what I call “my house” was built beside the oak out of dead redwood trees. The oak, by this time the oldest living being in the area, grew protective of this redwood structure, and even of the humans within it, despite all the destruction they wrought. I’ve had no doubt, since first setting foot on what I now call “my lot,” that the tree is protecting me and sending me love. Its ever-expanding canopy of leaves covers over two-thirds of my house in the summer, keeping it cool on even the hottest days. In the autumn, as its acorns hit the roof, the deck, sometimes even my head, like small exploding artillery shells, I give thanks and gratitude for the way it shares its abundance.

    On a cold, dark winter night, silver stars glitter through the outline of the oak’s bare black branches, its ancient arms reaching to the cosmos. My tiny form sits in a tub of hot bubbling water. Boundaries between me, tree, and twinkling stars dissolve into emptiness.

    * fungus which grows in association with the roots of a plant in a symbiotic or mildly pathogenic relationship. Oxford English Dictionary

    Patricia Morris lives under the trees in Northern California and writes on Monday nights at Jumpstart Writing Workshops. She dates her love of stories to being read to while sitting on the lap of her Great-Aunt Ruth, a children’s librarian. Her writing has appeared in Rand McNally’s Vacation America, the Ultimate Road Atlas and The Write Spot anthologies Possibilities and Musings and Ravings From a Pandemic Year, edited by Marlene Cullen.

  • One Wish Now, or Three In Ten?

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    One Wish Now, or Three In Ten?

    By Patricia Morris

    Patricia’s response to the writing prompt: Would you rather have one wish granted today, or three wishes granted ten years from now?

    Given that my dear friend of forty years died last week after a fast and furious 6-week illness, I will take my one wish today, please. No waiting for ten years for anything anymore. There are no ten years guaranteed, especially when, in ten years, I will be six months shy of 70 years old. That is a shocking thing to write, but that is my reality.

    Having only one wish, the pressure is on. To make it the “right” wish, the “best” wish, the “greatest good for the greatest number” wish. I could game it. I could make my one wish be to have one wish granted annually for the rest of my life. Leave it to the dormant lawyer brain to spring to life and offer up that one.

    I could wish to know when and how I will die. But no, I couldn’t do that and do away with the fundamental mystery of life. Then I would probably spend the rest of my days fixated on that moment and drain the life out of life.

    I might wish to end and reverse global warming. A wish to repair all the environmental damage that humankind has wrought and then, once repaired, for earth’s ecology to hold steady. I like this wish, but I can’t help wondering about unintended consequences. It violates the scientific fact that nothing holds steady. That even seemingly solid mountains are moving, that friends come and go, that I will come and go. That stars, made up of the same stuff as you and I, burst into life and flame into death. I wouldn’t wish for it to be any other way.

    Patricia Morris’s lawyer brain went dormant decades ago, and she tries to keep it that way when she writes for fun, as she does on Monday nights at Marlene Cullen’s and Susan Bono’s Jumpstart Writing Workshops. Her writing has appeared in Rand McNally’s Vacation America, the Ultimate Road Atlas and The Write Spot:  Possibilities and The Write Spot:  Musings and Ravings From a Pandemic Year, both edited by Marlene Cullen. The Write Spot books available at Amazon, Book Passage (Corte Madera), and Gallery Books (Mendocino).

    Patricia Morris will be a featured presenter at Writers Forum on July 29, 2021 at 6 pm.

  • California Winter

    California Winter

    By Patricia Morris

    (with thanks to Ted Kooser)

    The wind turns the pages of rain

    As drops splatter on the skylights,

        beating a rhythm punctuated by

        the cracks of unmoored oak limbs

         hitting the roof.

     

     The rain chain dances,

        brass acorns jingling,

        water swooshing through its cups.

     

     The creek rushes over rocks,

          gushes into the culvert and out again,

          making its overground / underground way to the river.

     

    The thirsty earth soaks it in,

       filters it down into empty aquifers.

    One chapter ending, another beginning.

     

    Freewrite inspired by the poem, A Rainy Morning, by Ted Kooser

     

    Patricia Morris misses the summer thunderstorms of her rural Midwestern upbringing, but enjoys observing and writing about the California rains from her home in Petaluma.

    After careers as diverse as trial lawyer and organization and leadership development consultant and coach, she is exploring life beyond the workaday world.

    Every Monday night she writes with friends at Marlene Cullen’s and Susan Bono’s Jumpstart Writing Workshops. Her writing has appeared in Rand McNally’s Vacation America, the Ultimate Road Atlas and The Write Spot:  Possibilities edited by Marlene Cullen. Available on Amazon, print $15 and ereader $2.99.